The day of November 11, 2011 passed by smoothly. I unexpectedly ended up being in LA for business on that special day, instead of camping in the Dragoon Mountains with my love.
The important meeting that brought me to Los Angeles was set for 11am on 11.11.11. At 11:11am I shared a moment of silence while holding the hand of one of the most important women in this industry. It felt a little awkward yet significant and beautiful.
However, that night I had one of the most intense headaches of my life. I literally feared my head would explode. My intuition said not to take anything for it, so I laid there in prayer and meditation until I fell asleep. An hour later I awoke and the pain was miraculously gone; I felt lucid and clear. Interestingly enough I heard from a variety of friends, including my assistant Matt, that they too had experienced mind bending headaches. Hmm…!?
In the days following, I went through various personal challenges that had me spinning with feelings of doubt and confusion. Insecurities surfaced and I experienced untamable fears and cloudy vision. I also got the flu. In moments of healthy consciousness, I understood that I was going through a metamorphosis and that I needed to surrender myself to these feelings and just allow them to move through me. I also sensed that the turmoil I was experiencing might not just be about me, Kate, but that at this time the whole world is going through a major shift. I kept reminding myself that change often hurts. Many of our old ways and beliefs no longer work and this is an opportunity to shift things for the better. There is a sort of slash (or crash) and burn happening, like a natural wild fire that clears away the brush in order to make room for new, healthy growth.
I rose out of my ashes just in time for Thanksgiving and my birthday on December 5th - and with it came an undeniable, unquestionable clarity. Every block and every judgment that I was holding on to at the time had to be released. A phrase from Dr. Wayne Dyer, one of the great mentors of our time became my mantra "There Are No Justified Resentments" And he always emphasizes “NONE! No matter what.” This is a difficult practice and we can only succeed a part of the time, for we are human and have an ego. However, if we keep reminding ourselves of these wise words, we can better ourselves and the world little by little.
The other day I called an old friend with whom I had had a tumultuous falling out, yet have missed every day since. I felt no more bitterness when I reached out, all I felt was the love I have for her. She seemed so happy to hear from me and I sensed the release of a great burden. Also, I was finally able to write a new song after months of writers block. It seemed like the healing had become contagious. Oh the miracles!
I encourage you to let go of any resentment and blocks that hold you back from being your authentic self. Go a step beyond forgiveness and just let go of the hurt and allow yourself to freely love all those who have challenged you to the core and most importantly yourself. Just love, love, love.
Happy Holidays beautiful people! I love you all and thank you for your kindness and support!
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